After Marriage; What next?

I honestly have no idea what lies ahead after the wedding. Married life starts, they say. What is married life? Or is it too soon to tell?

When I was younger and full of dreams of rainbows and butterflies, I knew at the back of my head, that someday, I will get married and start my own family. It’s like no matter what happens to your career, as a woman, it’s like a fulfillment when you finally found your one true love and get married. Just like in fairytales. But we can’t always depend on happy endings, can we? So I tried to be a normal girl, finish my studies and eventually get an exciting job. I worked on a cruise ship and there I met the love of my life, my better half. We went out for couple of years before we decided to get married. He is so adorable and I love him so much!

Since we are of different nationality, I have to basically stop working to sort out papers for us to stay together and that means time. I cannot obviously commit to another contract on the ship because paperwork demands time and that’s what I did.

The wedding was simple and intimate. Only close friends and relatives were present and it was the most magical moment of my life!

So we were officially married! I overheard one of his friends asked him, “How does it feel?”. He meant being married, and so I wonder. Am I supposed to feel any difference now that I’m married? Should I? Or shouldn’t I, just because we’ve tied the knot? I asked myself the same question. Does it say in the book that you have to feel different? Am I missing something? Surely that golden ring means something. Commitment, vows, promises but I already knew that and I am wholeheartedly committing myself to him.

It does feel like we are still boyfriend-girlfriend-bestfriend relationship but is it bad that I don’t really feel that much of a difference? Do we have to act sweeter in public than we already are?

Until I slowly came to realization when we had a small argument about something. Now that we are married, we became one. We became a family. A family that no matter how hard it gets, you will keep it together, I noticed I had longer patience, I let the small things go because it’s a waste of energy for both of us to argue about it. Unlike when we were boyfriend-girlfriend, you’d think about giving up and breaking up when things get messy or out of control. I would look at that golden ring and I will be reminded why I married this guy in the first place and that upon marrying him, I’ve accepted whatever shortcomings we might have and that being together is all that matters.

(Sigh), I never thought I’d be this matured. Marriage did change me I guess.

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